damned if I do(n’t)

damned if I do(n’t)

the story of Job has long 
terrified me because even

if I lived the most righteous 
life I possibly could, god

could still hand me over to 
satan and kill my kids and 

wreck my whole damn life
just to “prove” something 

to his pesky arch nemesis

*
I'm busy writing book 3 of my poetry trilogy that began with unbelieve and jaded. I would like for her to have a very different vibe than the first two (while still feeling like they all fit together), but she keeps trying to be all jaded volume 2, dang it.

Anyone else leave evangelical christianity (or christianity altogether) but find it reeeeeallly challenging to let go of FEAR?