the one that got away

Sooooo… what do you do when one of your literal romantic fantasies COMES TO ACTUAL REAL LIFE and you quite unexpectedly find yourself smack dab in the middle of a very brief but very exhilarating meet cute scenario IN THE GOODWILL BOOK AISLE but you’re too flustered to keep it going and he walks away and you might never see him again and you don’t know a single thing about him and what if he was your soul mate????

Gaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

We exchanged 15 words total (6 for him and 9 for me) and I thought I was dreaming except I could physically hear/feel my heart beating loudly and erratically and doing these weird flip flops and this is a completely foreign feeling for me because I shut the doors of my heart to romantic love quite some time ago thank you very much and maybe I was imagining the chemistry and maybe he’s married or isn’t attracted to women BUT NOW I WILL NEVER KNOW.

(deep dramatic sigh)

Soooo… do you want to hear the story?